AIBU to hate birthdays?

[Andromeida59]

I am turning 37 on Tuesday and I'm absolutely dreading it. I had a miscarriage in June and had thought that this birthday might be different. I could actually see a future but now I just feel so lost and empty. I've had to cut down my hours at work due to illness and I'm just not where I thought I'd be. My last birthday was spent in hospital and generally I feel time is running out to start a family.

I am working on my birthday but it just hurts.

AIBU?

Yanbu. So sorry for your loss. if it's your first MC you might not be eligible for any tests on NHS yet, but if you can possibly stretch to it financially, having some fertility checks etc privately might help.

I'm not fan of birthdays either really.
Family keep asking me what I "want" etc... after 3mc last yr and currently due in 2 months I couldn't give a rats about my birthday I just want the baby to be ok.

Have you got a partner OP? Tell them how you feel, perhaps you can have a nice meal together a few days later when you aren't working or do something relaxing together.

Ps 37 isn't that old. I know lots of people who have had kids at that age. I won't lie, Mcs are more common as we age, and it's a horrible thing to bear, but I really hope you get there in time. I don't know many people who haven't ended up with a baby, even if it took a little while & was bumpy road.

YANBU. I don't like my birthday either. Don't mind other peoples but have hated mine since adolescence. I would ignore it as much as you can.

Thanks for all of the advice.
I do have an OP, we've been together nearly 15 years, but I think I've overloaded him with baby talk.

This is my second miscarriage. First one was 3 years ago.

This is all made worse by seemingly everyone around me being pregnant. I know they're not but it feels like it. I don't begrudge anyone else at all but I just wish I was pregnant.

It's been harder over the past few days as my test results came back with the all clear. I'm glad it wasn't a molar pregnancy (I had a blighted ovum) but it was just another reminder.

I don't hate anyone else's birthday and will go out of my way to celebrate them. It's just mine I hate. I'm sure if I was still pregnant I wouldn't feel like this.