To ask you to tell me I'm being silly

[thefloogals]

Me and my H are going to be TTC in the next 8 weeks. We already have a 2 year old.

Literally since our son was about 3/4 months old my body has had this overwhelming urge to have another. We haven't yet tried for various reasons but have decided we will start in September.

I know I'm being silly but I'm absolutely TERRIFIED I will have another (much wanted) child and not feel as much love for him/her as I do for my DS. I just don't feel like I can love any other person in the same way.

I know millions of people have more than one but I can't get this thought out of my head and it's scaring me

I felt this when pregnant with much longed for DC2 I suddenly panicked that I couldn't love them as much as DC1 and that I was going to ruin everything. But, as soon as DC2 was here my love just grew and seeing them together is amazing.

We now have 3 and it is just three times the love and so wonderful to see them as a unit each with their unique roles and beautiful personalities.

Honestly it'll be amazing go for it.

Tbh, I thought everyone felt like this.
I can't remember when my love for dd2 equalled dd1. It wasn't when I was pregnant, then I was worried like op. Possibly on the day she was born, but if not, it wasn't much later.

I felt the same DS turned 3 about 3 weeks before DD was born. First I was worried I wouldn’t be able to love another child as much as DS, then I was worried he would feel pushed out or like I loved him less because he had to share the love.

As it turned out I love them both more than anything ever. They are totally different personalities but they compliment each other and they get along bloody brilliantly 90% of the time. DS loves DD as much as me and DP and she adores him. It’s absolutely bloody magical watching them play and chat together. They are 7 and 4 now and they do argue like tiny dramatic teenagers from time to time but it never lasts long then they are back to partners in mischief and each others protectors.

They do gang up on me though, sometimes even when I am telling one or both of them off for arguing with each other they will suddenly start sticking up for each other and paint me to be the bad guy which is frustrating and hilarious in equal measure