Moving on from infertility

[Mookie81]

Hi all, posted in Infertility but no responses. Also posted on Chat with very few responses (thank you to those who have replied), so thought I'd try here. Maybe it's because it's not about a neighbour's bins or a CF, who knows .

After a failed cycle in 2017 I don't feel like I can face another round. My husband feels the same. I don't feel like I want one anymore. We're 37 and 40, we have a nice life together and the longer it goes on the less I feel like I want the disruption and impact of a child. I also have a real fear of having a child with needs. I only really feel wistful for my mum not getting a grandchild from me (although I have siblings that will give her a chance)!
How have you all come to terms with being a childless (or childfree) couple?

This post has touched me. I am in such a similar situation. I spend my day comparing my two lives... one with a child and one without and can’t settle on which one is better. I often feel like I’m not living my best life right now because I’m so stuck between choosing.

We have also only had one round of ivf, it was traumatic for my husband more than me as he had to have his sperm surgically extracted, against the odds we got a positive result but sadly miscarried at 10 weeks. The miscarriage itself has been no walk in the park physically and had to have a late d&c.