I know im not crazy, i know its happening. Our relationship has been "off" for a while. He says its down to my new job and the associated training, when im not working long shifts, im studying. He says because of that the house and gone south. Its true, it has. But i get no help at all, keeping on top of it myself is hard. He doesnt help, although he works less hours, no training, and brings in less than half what i do. He says this is because the children are mine, so he shouldnt have to tidy after them. Fair enough, but i cant do it all.
But i know its more than that. The intimacy in the relationship has all but gone. I can count on one hand how many time we have dtd in the last 6 months. He is always up late, until the early hours late. he often sleeps downstairs. When he is in bed theres do affection even if i attempt to instigate it - im talking just a hug, not even more than that. When he is in bed hell pick up his phone and then look what way im facing before he either unlocks or puts it down again. HE never ever lets me even see the phone screen. All notifications are now switched off. He has deleted his facebook account. His computer is now locked with a passcode. He is never back from work on time, and im talking sometimes 2 hours late. He randomly goes out in the day for a couple of hours - he says its to see work mates. He went to the supermarket which is 10 mins walk away yesterday and it took 2 hours. He has gone out again just and we had plans for an event happening 4-7 tonight, but now i can only meet him for 2 hours of it instead of the full 3. He has suggested 4-6 and then he can have the last hour alone time. He has suddenly started dressing better when he is out, shaving more and bathing. He doesnt look at me, like ever, no eye contact. He still tries to do our shared interests, but theres no conversation, its done in silence. Ill tell him i love him, every day, and he replies, but i dont believe him. I know theres something more. Im not imagining it. He says hes just stressed. But INBU am i? Hes cheating. Isnt he?