Do I need to be worried about an eating disorder??

[BananaRama99]

So I'm 19 years old and in the last year I've put on a lot of weight. I had attributed this to starting antidepressants. However, I was making excuses for myself, in reality I was binging on junk - crisps and sweets etc.
Last year I begun to make myself sick, I managed to get a hold of it myself but negative thoughts towards my body, binging and cyclic dieting resumed.
My issues have picked up again, culminating in emotional breakdowns and a fear of looking in the mirror/gaining weight. I have been trying to lose weight by following a strict diet-I still eat but just healither.
On occasion (roughly 2 times a week) I make myself sick after a big meal if I feel quite full. TMI sorry - but I don't have to stick my fingers down my throat anymore, it's too easy to do, I just have to cough a certain way and it happens.
I have no self esteem when it comes to my body, I feel much fatter compared to everyone else and I really judge and analyse myself in the mirror.
Am I at risk of an eating disorder??

You already have an eating disorder. Make a GP appoinment asap.

Sorry you are going through this

Try the book Overcoming Binge Eating (its actually about restricting and vomiting as well).

Or google cci eating disorder workbooks for a free resource.

Try to skip the mirror and turn your attention to more positive fun things, this life is yours, you’re not here to be an ornament to others, good luck.

I’m afraid You aren’t at risk, as you already have one. Binging and purging are very much symptoms, as is having emotional breakdowns because of food and how you feel about your body.

Please talk to your GP about seeking support.