I hate how I look, no self confidence

[BananaRama99]

Posting here for traffic, bit of a rant really.
So I've been on sertraline for both anxiety and depression for over a year and a half now and I've put on a fair amount of weight. Don't know if the weight gain can be fully attributed to that or along with my binging and bulimia type behaviours. I have been dieting for the past few weeks to try and lose some weight.
Anyway, I'm constantly comparing myself to other girls my age (I'm 19) and feeling totally worthless in comparison. I feel like I'm on the reject pile in every aspect of my life, I'm lonely and ready for a relationship but keep thinking who would want to go out with me due to how ugly I am.
I'm also a constant people pleaser and can't say to people, so therefore they take the mick.
I honestly feel like if I disappeared today no one would notice or care. I hate looking in the mirror as all I can see is a disgusting excuse for a human being.
What should I do? Sorry for being depressing on a Sunday.

Do not start a relationship. Your self worth isn't high enough and someone will exploit that. Work on yourself first

Agree with previous poster. I was feeling really low and spent a year working on myself...getting fit etc. It was when I was feeling great and full of confidence that I met my now husband.
You are really young. Things will get better. I am sure you are a lovely person as well.

My Dd is just s bit older than you and I know it’s really common to constantly compare yourself with others and feel you don’t measure up. As for looking in the mirror, again it’s easy to see the things you don’t like.
It sounds as though you’re doing the right things by taking your medication and getting together with other people. Is there anything you do just for yourself? Something you enjoy? Maybe try and think of something you like doing, doesn’t have to be a big thing.
And I see you, you’re not invisible here xx