The other day I read a post on the subject of older men and young teenage girls. I can't remember the title of the post but lots of women commented. It was a real wake up call for me,
I have realized that I have spent a great deal of my time feeling sorry for myself, Not that I belittle the abuse I suffered, but compared to what has happened to others and reading their stories I feel that I 'got off lightly'.
Today I took myself to bed feeling like a dejected fat ugly mess and howled.
I am in my fifties and have always blamed myself.
After reading the post I have begun to see things very differently.
From now on I am going to put myself first and give myself respect.
I will stop poisoning myself with crap food and slowly killing myself.
I intend to bring myself back to health and be a good role model.
I have always tried my best but always felt second best if that makes sense.
I want to thank the women that wrote honestly about their lives and encourage anyone who didn't read the post to do so.
Please do not use this post for a newspaper.