Suddenly not coping anymore

[recklessruby]

I m known as a very strong person. I have bipolar and manage this with medication but lately i have been a bit hit or miss with taking it and not renewed the prescription.
To be honest I have no time to take care of myself.
Ds is 31 and moved home 2 years ago after a nervous breakdown and the loss of his job/flat. He has depression which is now being controlled by sertraline and has been off work for 6 weeks. The job he has now is great. Really understanding and he s so much better he s going back next week.
So aibu to keep losing control and secretly crying at stupid things (lost my phone earlier and acted like a 12 year old) and feel exhausted?
I m due time off soon but i m really struggling. Every day is an effort and i feel like i m on stage pretending its all fine while secretly wanting to run away.
I m a crap person who isnt much good at caring arent I?

You need self care right now. Get back to GP and sort your meds. Hugs

OP you are not being unreasonable.
However, I do think MN is being grossly unreasonable to have this thread on their stupid AIBU voting system.
MN need to actually read the OP before instigating this stupid voting system.
Fine for lighthearted stuff, but not this.

You're not a crap person op. You are human and have needs. Look after yourself and be kind to yourself. It doesn't make you any less strong.

It's not your fault, you're carrying a lot. You need to talk it through and offload. Do you have a counsellor or mental health support person who can allow you to do that? Be very kind to yourself.

You sound exhausted and overloaded and you really need a break.

That’s just human - neither weak nor strong. Don’t be hung up on the idea of ‘people’ perceiving you as the strong one: you aren’t, you’re a mix of strength and weakness like the rest of us and you’re entitled to be so. Give up that idea and just feel your feelings - organise yourself so you get more of what you need.

I did turn on the vote. Don t know if i m being unreasonable or not as i do feel very selfish and childish as a 50 year old woman crying over stupid things .
Also ds is getting better so I should be happy and not fall apart now after 6 weeks of caring for him

yes you are just human and under a huge amount of stress, well done fro keeping going, you must be very strong, no wonder you're flagging a bit now, I hope your son goes from strength to strength

I agree with jessicawessica...
this is too real, and too sensitive for the AIBU forum.

I was/am you in many ways.
I was super strong, did everything for everyone; was depended-upon, lauded, and received (local) awards...
but I finally buckled and crumbled, and am now in a Hell hole.

Please don't screw with your meds.
And pehaps also seek therapy. I wish I would have from the start.

You need to look after yourself - see your GP and do the things you need to do to get back on track. Your son seems to be sorting out his issues and although it’s great you’re there for him, you need to worry about you.

You didn't take your meds regularly so you're getting ill. That's it. No moral aspect to it

I voted YABU because you are being FAR too hard on your self. Others have advised you what to do about your current inability to cope. I wish you all the best. You will get through this.

Of course yanbu. Or, at least, being unreasonable is normal. I think grown children moving back is oppressive, but mothers don't like to say so. I'm just guessing, but that's how it seems from the outside.

Please get your meds sorted. You're feeling ill because you need them. Big hugs xxx