To be scared?

[NinjaPenguin586]

Hi, this is a long one.... so I am afraid of the dark, like really afraid. I always have been even as a child.
Anyway... My DC are staying at their grandparents tonight and my DP has gone to stay his DB. so I knew I was going to be home alone, usually I love it! (whoop whoop!)
I went out with friends and DP said he'd see me tomorrow, he'd be gone by the time I got home.

Now We live in a very old farmhouse in the middle of nowhere. (Village is 2 mile away, nearest town is 6 mile. No neighbours within sight)
I got home tonight about 11.30pm, it's pitch black outside. There are no street lights and the yard light doesn't reach the house but I usually just make a dash with my phone torch to the porch and flick the light on.

So I do this only I find the porch door slightly ajar... I then go in and find the front door WIDE OPEN!! Like door open all the way. The House is in total darkness but completely open.
Now my imagination is running wild! We are literally in the middle of nowhere, I'm all alone in the dark.
My bloody DP has forgotten to close the door AGAIN! This is not the first time he's done it and we argued about it before. Causing me unnecessary fear because he can't close a door at night.

So now I'm freaking out, thinking what if someone is in the house!? what if they're hiding behind a door or something? Yes it's very unlikely but still, once that thought it is there is hard to get rid of. So now I'm scared and angry because I wouldnt be freaking out if DP had just closed the damn door!! How do I sleep? do I go straight to bed and just try and ignore the fear or do I go around and check every room like a crazy person?
I'm lying in bed listening to my very old farmhouse creaking and groaning and trying to be rational that it's just old floor boards a bit pipes etc but it's really bloody hard when technically anyone or anything could have come in in the hours I was away.
I could go outside and scream at the top of my lungs and literally no one would hear me. 😕

AIBU right now and just too precious by being scared or is this fairly reasonable?

I really want to send a very angry messaged to DP as well for doing this again.

Oh love! It’s not UNreasonable but it’s not hugely reasonable either. He needs a bollocking but you I think need to take a huge breath and try and calm yourself down. I have the BBC Radio app on my phone and find listening to one of the classic dramas I’m not hugely into - so it doesn’t keep me awake because I’m gripped! - helps massively when I’m home alone because I suddenly decide that a ghost will make itself known having not existed for the three years I’ve lived here.

I know I'm late to the party this one but I was actually reading this thread as I was lying wide awake, home alone last night.

Your DP is knob for leaving the door open. YANBU to be scared. I'd shit myself, especially living that rurally.

Your house sounds amazing! I’d love a house like that.

Anyway, assuming all was well when you woke up this morning?

You're not crazy or BU. I'm the same, when I'm home alone I have to check the house for madmen/ghosts/murderer's. I also cant sleep if the airing cupboard door is open or the wardrobe door is ajar, just in case someones in there, even tho iv already checked. I'd last about 5 minutes in your house, I need my neighbours to hear me scream

Ps I'm in my 50s!

YANBU. My old Flatmate left our flat door open one day, the internal flat door, not even the one to the street, and main hallway only shared with only one other flat. I still knocked on the flat downstairs and asked her to come up with me and check all was well. It wasn’t even dark!

Thanks everyone! I'm glad it's not just me that has a wild imagination 🙈 haha
I love my house and location but sometimes it's a little too 'ideal horror movie location-ish'
I survived the night without any drama. I put music on.

I was very mature and called DP this morning when they sun was shining to tell him if he ever does it again, no one will be hearing him screaming!

When I'm home alone I always walk around thinking 'If this was a horror movie, THIS is the point I would get killed off'. Particularly when I'm in the shower.

Living like this sounds like an nightmare. Just gives me the creeps thinking of it. Glad you are ok though op.

So very not unreasonable!!! (I've been known to sleep with a very large, very heavy maglite torch in my hand when on my own. . . and always have to check every room before bed!)

So glad you survived the night lol and so glad it's just not me that's a scaredy cat!