I have posted before about the horrible situation I've been in for the last two years with my delusionally jealous husband. We have parted ways at a complete dead end. I bought a new house and he stayed in our family home - the kids are with me 4 nights and he's seeing a psychiatrist, though he's still in complete denial. Of course I'm relieved because it got to the point where he thought every word that I said was a lie and still thought I was sneaking out in the middle of the night to sleep my imaginary lover. Anyway, I'm devastated but I know time and self care will help.
The thing that has just hit me hard is this. He has always been a bit on and off with work (for 17 years) and has barely worked at all in the last 3 years. I have supported him financially and funded an overseas trip (20k), his 50th birthday bash, a wedding (ours 2 years ago) and a couple of small trips in addition to daily living costs etc. I helped him prepare and submit a compensation claim due to some serious health issues he's had. He has just found out that he will be getting $102k from them as compensation. Firstly, I just wanted to say that I am really happy for him to have some financial relief especially given he has to pay the monthly payments on our family home until we do our settlement. But....... I am also gutted. I have looked after my husband financially for so long and this is the first time he's ever had surplus funds. Because of his delusional beliefs, leaving has cost me a lot emotionally and financially. The kids and I don't have beds - only mattresses until I can save some money to furnish the new house. I had to leave so much behind because of his beliefs. I'm happy for him but I'm jealous and resentful about the whole thing.
AIBU to be so gutted that he's gotten this now? Worse still is that no doubt, he sees this as 'good things coming to him' after all that his horrid wife put him through. Feel free to put me in my place if I am BU because I know that these feelings are wrong but I am such an emotional wreck!