Just that really - posting here for traffic.
Long story short, in the past few years my life has fallen apart completely. Marriage in crisis, redundancy, serious financial problems, MH issues, stress, insomnia - all whilst dealing with stroppy teenagers and the menopause. I'm a naturally pretty resilient and optimistic person, but at a time when I'd totally expected to be happy and settled, I feel overwhelmed with despair on a daily basis. This has been the case for over three years now.
Still managing to keep up a facade of normality and most people (inc kids) know only surface details of what's gone on, but the truth is I'm exhausted and at breaking point. Much as I try to put a positive spin on things and find reasons to feel grateful and blessed and all that Hallmark wankery, I cry all the time when I'm alone and can't seem to get my head straight - I just feel like I've lost the ability to see what the point of it all is.
Can't afford therapy and not sure I could muster the energy to dredge through it all with a stranger. Have tried to tackle with diet, exercise, even new hobbies (Christ!) but the effects don't last. I feel like drugs might be my only option at this point but I'm anxious at the thought of taking anti-depressants. Not sure why, really - it's not like things could be much worse!
So is stuff like Prozac any good? What are the side effects, pros, cons? How long do you need to take it to get the benefit? Do you feel worse again when you stop? I know I can google the facts, but it would be good to hear from anyone who's been in a similar situation. Any advice gratefully received. Thanks.