fed up on being belittled by DH. When I question it or tell him it makes me feel down all I get is blamed and told there is truth in it and that I just don’t see it. It’s the little comments about how things around the house just don’t seem to get done, questioning what I do each day, focusing on what I haven’t done rather than what I have. He works hard, works long hours to provide but even when I worked full time the chores and childcare were all me. I fell ill 6 years ago and now cannot work. He told me that will work fine if I sort kids and house and he works but I’m constantly made to feel guilty about it.
I am not superwomen, I probably do waste time each day by distractions, I admit. But I try. Sometimes jobs take a while and not a lot to see. Sometimes I’m hurting so much I physically can’t do all the chores.
I’m failing as a wife and mother. Sinking into a deep hole that rears it’s ugly head every 4-6 months when we fall out. Each time it’s always my fault and each time it’s becsuse I’ve gone on a downer and then I say what hurt my feelings.
Maybe I’m overreacting but the constant jokes about providing, quips about being a lady of leisure etc are taking their toll.
I’d give anything to go back to how it was and back to a life of no pain. I didn’t choose this path. I wouldn’t give up on him had the cards been dealt differently...
I’ve tried to look for a job but then I get told not to be silly as it might be too much and make my symptoms flare again.
I’m in that I can’t win either way