To cancel psychology appointment for Monday

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Not sure I can take much more of this "impending doom" pressure. First appointment with this doctor, had no psychological input for over three years, shitting myself and the mental feeling is so fucked up. My heart rate is up,,my blood pressure is up and I can only sleep in chunks of an hour/two hours here and there.

I know I need this therapy though, thanks to my childhood, but actually following through and doing it is so hard.

Thinking I should cancel and carry on with the fucked-up childhood rolling round my head (I've been told by numerous professionals in the past, including doctors, I have PTSD and CPTSD, this would be the "official stamp" on it).

Should I just cancel?

Good luck tomorrow. I hope it goes well. You don’t need to say more than you want to but you need support.

Please go and explain your anxieties and fear of opening up with the psychologist so they can work with this to give you the right support.

I work in this field. OP, please go. Tell them your fears. There is no obligation (or time usually!) to unpack everything in a first session. They will work at your pace and work to build your trust, they will know to make sure you are not Retraumatised. Also don’t be afraid to ask for someone else if they are not the right person for you.

getting a psychologist was one of the best things i ever did. I think you should go

I don't know if you're coming back to this thread OP, but a good place to start if you're feeling extremely anxious about starting psychotherapy is by talking exactly about that anxiety. You can start the session by saying you were extremely scared of coming and why, eg you are scared of opening up to someone. It's a good place to start without the pressure of having to say anything you don't want to say, and acknowledging your feelings around psychotherapy makes therapy itself easier.

So I went to the appointment, it was really tough, one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, if not the hardest. Managed to blurt out my rape and my sexual assault too. Deffo PTSD/CPTSD, now on waiting list for therapy and psychiatry. Thank you for the all the support

Well done
The first step is the hardest and now you're on the road to recovery.

WELL DONE. This is just the start of you starting to get your head organised. fantastic work xx

Well done. That must’ve been beyond awful. I’m sorry if it sounds patronising but I’m thrilled and proud of you. You’ve made the hardest step. I really hope you get the help and support you need.

That's amazing, you are amazing.

Jeez, you lot are bloody amazing

Really pleased you managed this OP. Hopefully that is the most nerve inducing session out of the way.

I’m not but you are.

Well done!

I'm glad you managed to go, and hope you don't have to wait too long for treatment.

Well done! The first step, good luck with your therapy