to feel down despite nothing really being that bad?

[Beeperbird]

There's a lot on in my life at the mo, positive and negative, but I just feel a bit lost, well, aimless really.
I'm a SAHM with two under 3. I do love spending time with my kids but I feel tired & frustrated almost constantly, like I'm losing myself, but when I think about going back to work it terrifies me and I want to be there for the kids as my parents weren't when I was younger.
I feel like my friends aren't really my friends, like its all just a bit too fake and on the surface.
I don't really have any hobbies, I'm too knackered in the evenings from running around with the kiddies all day.
My husband and I talk a bit each evening and spend time together with the kids at weekends, we talk "business" - plans, how was your day etc - but don't really have fun anymore, haven't been intimate in nearly 6 months. Lots of silly little arguments creeping in.
We're trying to sell our house and I keep thinking maybe we should move south to where my parents are so I can get some support, but my mum and I clash if we spend more than a couple of days together and I think they're on the brink of divorce.

I keep trying to think of the positives - I've got two beautiful children and we're all healthy. I'm just a bit lost, not even really sure what I'm asking.

Beeper it's a very hard time for so many families, especially the SAHM. I felt the same at that stage and found this helped:

DH and I blocked out the weekend into 9 chunks of 4 hours: one on Friday evening and four each on Saturday and Sunday.

We agreed we would have one chunk of time each to ourselves, to do whatever we wanted: meet friends, do a class, nap, get a hair cut, anything at all. During that time the other person would have complete responsibility for the DC, either at home or taking them out somewhere.

Then we'd have one chunk together as a couple, and get a sitter - usually friday or saturday night.

Then two chunks as a family doing something fun out of the house. that might be a full day's outing or two half days of going swimming or to the park.

There'd be one chunk where we'd do household chores and maybe take one child each - one of us would shop and the other clean, or one do gardening and the other one declutter or DIY.

Then there were three left for just getting on with the day - mealtimes and bath times and people turning up or family visits etc.

It sounds really over-planned but it kept us sane. It meant we knew we'd each get 4 uninterrupted hours - half a day every weekend, so stuff like haircuts and catch ups with single friends etc could happen. or you could use it to go out in the evening with friends or to the cinema alone etc. And we also knew we'd get a night out together. And some proper fun with DC. It worked really well. We started having loads of happy family outings and stopped competing about how tired we were.

It's not a solution but it's progress. You get to have fun alone, fun with your partner and fun as a family every week, and gradually that strengthens your happiness and your life.

I have felt the same this week. I think it was the weather bringing me down, with constant rain but having the sun shining today made all the difference. Just want you to know it’s not just you.

PP is a very good reply