First post so please be gentle. I have lurked for ages so I know there is some great advice and support on here.
I have 'just a few things' bothering me! To keep this a bit shorter …
I have a small family - Mum is elderly with parkinsons, younger sister is only happy when in charge to say the least and has on a couple of occasions assaulted me. As well as family issues I have quite few monsters to deal with. I have a genetic chromosome condition (Turners Syndrome) which means that I am small and can not have children - maybe this is at least some of the reason for how I am treated by my family. I have had no support to deal with this - I found by accident during a GP visit for an ear infection some years ago when I was in my 20's, I was apparently diagnosed at 10 or 11 years old but not told. I have sort of coped by being busy at work, my job certainly required this. However in the last few years I have been bullied out of a permanent position (not entirely unheard of atm in this profession). I have also been diagnosed with a blood cancer which can not be cured just held at bay for a bit (some of the treatments sound really scary). Atm I am not on treatment and hope to avoid this for as long as possible - I know there won't be any support from family so am very scared. They don't even want to acknowledge that I have cancer. While I can I am trying to work, my career does at least allow agency/supply work but this is becoming thin on the ground under the current circumstances so I am looking for something more settled (at least I would know what income I had coming in even if much, much less than I used to earn). It means a career change so isn't easy. I have had a tough day yesterday another interview, rejection someone had more relevant experience. I also had 2 other rejections by e mail not shortlisted. I was so down. I let Mum and sister see that I was upset, huge mistake! They made me feel much worse, hence I haven't been able to sleep... Thank you for reading this far.