DP and I were recently going through quite a rough patch, not getting on at all and I was considering ending it completely and leaving him. We're getting on well again now but I feel really, really guilty as during this time I bitched about him quite a lot to my mum and sister - saying I didn't know if I fancied him anymore, that he was lazy etc etc. Also spoke to my friend about all this and said I just didn't know if I was happy. He obviously doesn't know about my bitching but I feel really mean now, like he thinks I'm so sweet and really I'm just a bitch.