WTF am I doing

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I realised I have no idea what I want from my life.
I'm in my early 30s and have mortgage, 2 kids etc but I am fed up with feeling stressed, a bad mum and unable to do everything that needs doing.
Tempted to buy a motor home and travel the world with the kids and no expectation ( not actually possible because I don't have an endless supply of money)

Sell house, buy motor home. Get going!

I agree op. Sometimes life can be boring and restrictive and monotonous. Need to keep things fresh, exciting, challenging etc as much as you can.

I would if I have more equity in the house at the moment selling the house would pay off my debts and that's about all.
I feelings a bit lost in the world of work- life balance and there is enough hours in the day.
I need to find a way not to fail at everything but trying my best for my girls.

Bad mum?

I'm constantly stressed and tired meaning I'm short tempered so don't has as much patience as I should plus i am so busy trying to fit in everything I miss quality time with the girls.
All I seem to say is have you done x, where is y, hurry up we need to be there by z.
I just feel I'm only just holding it together and I'm missing the best bits

That is absolutely not being a bad mum. Don’t even entertain the idea that being a mum is being a bad mum.

I try doing fun days out, go on holiday but all I seem to get it it's too hot, too cold, I don't like that, do we have to.
Eventually when I get them on board they enjoy it but it's all a battle.
At the moment with it being half term I see so many picture of we have had a fab day here and there and thinking of the battle to get us out the house I just wonder what I have don't wrong.

People lie like hounds, OP. We all have those battles. We post the good stuff.

Not sure how old they are but if you really want to escape you could always look up wwoofing. I did it a few years back, met loads of families who did it also.

I feel like this ALLLL the time!
I do my best and the rest is a bonus!!!

Should probably provide a link to what I'm on about. This is just the Italy page but there will be a page for loads of countries.

www.wwoof.it/en/

I got this in the TB email this week- maybe worth reading OP? (Lots of useful stuff on the website)

tinybuddha.com/blog/what-to-do-when-you-feel-stuck-stagnant-and-bored-with-your-life/

@TurquoiseAndPurple,
I've PM'd you!
TIA

turquoise That looks an interesting escape, I look into it.

Buzz thanks for the link, really helpful and thought provoking. Will have a look round the website.

Stop comparing really got to me. I think I need to realise life isn't perfect. I think I was exhausted after a particularly difficult day yesterday. Here to making today better (fingers crossed).

Also remember that what you see on social media is often a pile of shit. I know of at least 3 mums on my facebook who if you just believed Facebook are having amazing family time every day...yet in fact one has a serial cheater for a 'd'h, one battles serious mh problems and another is in a more sorted position but has a toddler who is in full terrible 2s. People rarely post the bad days, the children whining and spoiling a day out, the children fighting every time you turn you back etc.

I hear you OP, except I’m ten years older, so you’d think I’d know better.

Am currently having some therapy to help deal with it all, but I hate the feeling that I’m constantly failing slightly (or more than slightly!) at everything.

I have come off Facebook for now (deleted the app, not deregistered) , as I realised it isn’t doing me any good. I check perhaps once a week now as it’s the only way I keep up with some people.

I do find that the more prepared I am the night before the easier & less shouty it usually is to get out of the house - some days I feel like a sergeant major barking orders at everyone.

There was a lady on here the other day talking about seeing the pictures a friend put on SM of her happy smiling children #soblesssed #fundaysout #family. And she said she had thought, “Hang on, I was there! Your children mumped and moaned and trailed behind - this isn’t what this day was like!”
So don’t believe everything you see.

I’m off to look at those links.

I hate social media for giving the false impressions (or the way people use it). I think I need to take a break from it but I do need it for class updates for some of the kids classes and I do have some groups that are beneficial so I need to figure out a way to take a break without it losing the bits that help.

I think I need to change my priorities but it's hard to know what can become less of a priority......

Do not be fooled by instagram and Facebook feeds! Nobody ever puts the stressful bits on, you just get small snapshots of smiling kids in between the snotty noses/tantrums/whinging! What you are feeling is pretty normal and I was much the same when mine were little. We survived! Sorry I don't have any advice apart from writing lists and trying to plan everything so you don't end up rushing around last minute.

I do need to get more organised it's a vicious circle, not organised run round like mad, feel exhausted so don't get organised for the next day and it all starts over again