I will try and shorten this the best i can!
So me and my other half have just moved house, bigger house and amazing garden as we are wanting to start a family.
The problem is i feel like i am being a major cow, i dont know if it is all the change but i am just being so horrible.
My partner is great, works hard and treats me good. But lately i just have no patience at all. I am constantly grumbling about the state of the house- we are half way with decorating we have only been in 4 week.
We need a new fence putting up at one side of the garden as we have 0 privacy from our neighbours, we moved from a shared garden and the new garden is a great size. Downside is the fence.
I am on absolute pins at the moment as we have a dog, he is 9years old. Our neighbours have a dog too so both dogs are constantly try to smell each other and see each other as the fence between is isnt very tall. This makes me paranoid as i dont want to be annoying anybody.
So again i take this out on my partner. We have arranged to get a new fence put up which for me cannot come quick enough.
My partner has just been away for three days abroad to a friends wedding- i was invited but as i had only met the couple once and due to having nobody to look after the dog i offered to stay home. As also, it was saving money. Three days abroad for one person rather than us both going for a week was a lot cheaper. Again since he has been back i have hated him.
Im not sure if i am just resenting him?
I am a very nervous and paranoid person, due to my past i have been to counselling and been on anti depressants but i really dont want to take a step back to all that.
I havent really spoken to anyone about how i feel as compared to where i was two years ago to now i feel like i would be taking steps back rather then moving forward if i opened up.
Tonight i have been awful to my partner and really upset him, all because he had left the bathroom a mess. Which escalated into an argument and now hes asleep on the sofa and im in pieces in bed.
Can anyone give me any words of wisdom?
Sorry for the long essay