AIBU to be sat here crying over Eastenders.

[SnowWhitesRestingBitchFace]

I know I'm being unreasonable just need to get this out really.

Hopefully if you're reading this then you actually watch Eastenders and will know what I'm talking about.

The end scene with Halfway and Ben has honestly made me feel sick and I spent a good 10 minutes crying on the sofa being held by my DH. I know that sounds utterly ridiculous so so overly dramatic. My first boyfriend (together for 6 years and had a baby together) later came out as gay (it had been going on behind my back) and I feel so desperately sad for Whitney and what is to come for her.

Like I said, I know I'm being a twat. I think it just made me realise I'm still really not ok and maybe I need some more councelling.

It affected you personally. YANBU.

I'm sure someone will be along shortly to say 'FFS, it's just a story'. They can bog off. From time to time, soaps do have the capacity to get you in 'the feelz' and FWIW, I thought it was a bloody good scene.

Remember when Shaki died and poor Bonnie Langford was screaming and sobbing her heart out? Well my DM was just like that when DB died and I was in bits myself for the rest of the night.

So no, YANBU. See how you feel a little later on tonight, or tomorrow and if you're still dwelling on it then maybe you do need to talk it over. And you know what? That's ok.

As for Whit, she'll be heartbroken but thankfully she has no DC. Stacey and Tiff will be there for her and she'll pull through. Whitney's had far worse in her life and she'll be OK in the end.

So will you

Thank you both for being so kind! I think what's getting to me most is that I can already see the comments online and in the papers about how brave he is and how hard it must be to live having to conceal a part of yourself etc.

In my mind it's not brave and I don't feel sorry for anyone who drags another person into their confusion. I feel so stupid for crying etc. This all happened about 10 years ago!