To think Iv completely ruined my body and won’t ever fix it

[MummyCool19]

I’m feel mega depressed lately. Iv always been fat, from the age of 7/8. I was wearing adult size 14 at 10/11. And constantly gone up from there. Age 17 I had my first child which I piled even more weight on. I started playing he Cambridge diet when she was 7 weeks old and ended up doing it every single year for the past 10 years. Losing it and piling it back on.

In December I started weight watchers. I have never done a “normal” diet. I have lost 4 stone and roughly 4/5 stone to go. I am loving how my shape is coming along BUT I have a body of a 80 year old. My arms are so saggy, like when I lift it up I can see where my arm should be then skin/fat hanging off. I have lipodemia so my legs are huge (although losing a inches it will start to slow down). Surgery for my legs is £10k per op.

I have a saggy stomach. It feels heavy and I can actually lift it, not just abit of saggy skin.

I feel so ugly. I’m 28 and I can’t wear sleeveless tops, or go without leggings/jeans/tights.

Even my neck is saggy ffs!!!

Iv completely ruined my body. Iv been having therapy to cope with the food addiction and I can finally say I feel 80% in control.

I feel like this is my final shot, but wtf do I do?! There is no way I will be able to afford surgery unless we come into some money. I look at women my age who look amazing, and I feel a pang if jealousy.

I resent my parents for allowing me to eat so much shit as a young child to make me like this. I mean if you start your life eating crap until you are old enough to know better, it’s hard to change habit/addiction.

I’m so fed up.

I'm also wondering if you have EDS or at least a Hypermobility Disorder, as Lipoedema and loose skin can both be signs of this. I have Joint Hypermobility Syndrome and have loose skin like you describe at the tops of my arms and thighs, even though I have never been more than a couple of stone overweight

As do I, so not sure why I didn't even think of it!

Apologies OP, it hadn't crossed my mind that you might have been talking about the excess skin caused by EDS. My general sdvice still stands, but go to your GP now and start the discusson, so you can find out more and be as prepared as possible.

And yes, shapewear, 3/4 sleeves and any number of other 'tricks' make a lot of difference.

Like PP said your body will recover. I also don't think you should underestimate how self conscious lots of people feel about their bodies. There's always some imperfection that makes people uncomfortable in certain clothes. You're doing a great thing for your health, you should be proud, remind yourself of that and don't let the negative voices win.

Sorry just read the posts RE EDS of course if that's a possibility you should get it checked out.

Does the surgery option not do monthly payment plans? I hoped thought they did. I was going to look into it myself a couple years down the line as I am in a similar-ish situation.