I have been married for 5 years, and have a 4 1/2 year old and a 11 month old. We have been on a rollercoaster of a marriage. I love him. I hate him. All in the same minute. He makes me feel shit for everything. People around me tell me he is abusive. I feel bad coz I like to drink wine of a night, and he throws that in my face in every argument. This is what I feel most guilty for, and he never misses the chance to bring it up. Maybe I am a bad mum? I do so much, and the last two weeks I have been doing a course, so he has taken time off work to let me do that, but he is not coping with the daily tasks that he has always expected of me and never helped me with but now expects me to feel bad for him coz he has to do it for me. I’m kinda hoping it gives him an appreciation for what I do, but I’m just copping more crap then ever and we are fighting so bad I thinking about leaving. I don’t know, I’m not perfect, and I don’t wanna do it alone. I love him. But I also hate him. So confused.