Ok so I already know I'm being unreasonable. Bit of backstory. I had bacterial meningitis last year and was hospitalised, really poorly etc ended up with a permenant brain injury which basically means I'm now living with excess fluid surrounding my brain which causes chronic pain. I also have a tremor and muscle weakness caused by nerve damage, also from the BM. So I went from healthy, happy partner and working mum of two young kids to an absolute Trainwreck, I lost my job because I'm newly disabled and pretty emotionally unstable. My partner has a good job and we make enough to make ends meet, just. We lift paycheck to paycheck so to speak. For example at the minute we've cleared out the overdraft and we aren't due any money until the child tax credits go in on Thursday.
My issue is that everytime I hear that someone has bought a new car or is thinking of buying a bigger house or going on holiday I literally can't contain how upset and angry I feel. It isn't directed towards them as a person...it's as if I can't get over how unfair it is that we had that lifestyle or stability and now within 12 months it's gone. Can someone please just tell me to get my shit together so I can stop being an awful human being 