Because I can't see the wood for the trees.
Background is that I have been a SAHM for 9 years. I was bullied out of my job when pregnant with my first child, had MH issues which turned into crippling PND after my second child was born. Thankfully I am now doing great with my MH after counselling.
I have just finished my first year at university. DH works full time. We only have one car so I was using public transport to get to Uni and the DC's school is in walking distance. Up to now, only having the one car was fine. But where we live is quite rural so public transport isn't great.
Our income is just about covering the bills. But I had hoped to find some work over the summer...I have applied for lots but have literally not had one response, positive or negative. The issue is that even if I got something, we would then need to get another car and childcare is a problem come the summer holidays (8 weeks where I live). I have been applying for nightshifts and weekend work to hopefully get around that.
We have just found out that our landlord is in massive arrears on the mortgage and we are now panicking that we will have to move. This is all culminating in me feeling like I need to defer going back to Uni (can this even be done?) and get a full time job so that we can afford to move/live/save for a mortgage. If I do this, I will probably never finish the degree and DH is adamant that deferring is not an option. But he admits that we are heading towards big problems.
He is working all the overtime available, but he took a pay cut late last year because it meant better conditions. It was the right decision, but we are really struggling. The answer is me getting a job, but logistically this is a nightmare due to transport, childcare around DH's hours and my lack of recent experience. I am literally stuck in a cycle of finding a solution to one problem but then that is hampered by another problem, and in the end it is all useless anyway because I am not even getting interviews.
Every day just seems to bring another bill, another problem, there are issues with the house and the landlord has been radio silence for weeks now...we think because he doesn't have any money to sort the stuff out.
And while all this is going on I am now finished at uni and in the house all day feeling unproductive and like I am going slowly mad. I need a plan of action, but I don't know where to start. I don't even know what I am really asking or what anyone can really tell me, I suppose I just needed a vent.