I'm married, a mum of 3, a home owner and in my early 40's.
Since I turned 40 I keep thinking and asking myself 'is this it ? - is this all there is for me now in my life' ....
I have been in my job for 25 years, over the last few years new younger people are being employed by us, they are 'up' with the latest technology my employer has just rolled out (groan ! as i struggle with it) I have no idea on this new tech its just foreign to me (despite training); they are faster, have more fresher ideas and generally more keener than I probably am . I don't have a problem with this but feel overtaken and like I am older, slower and showing i am starting to be past it these days.
I have an easy commute and my house/work/school is all within 10 minutes drive of each other. I only work school hours - which is quite rare for an office job I think. I have 2 SEN children and their pediatricians office is within sight of my work - perfect for appts and picking up prescriptions etc
In the last 10 years i have finally established a small group of girl friends - we are all so alike and i have been longing for this all my life. I really click with these girls like no one else before.
Yet i am bored with the 9-5 (so to speak), bored with the 10 minute commute and the fact that my day only sees me going in a 3 mile radius, fed up of being restricted by annual leave for holidays (we get 32 days, very generous, plus flexi time). Bored of living in the same town for 40+ years, seeing the same people day in day out at work and on the commute etc.
There is a whole wide world out there which i feel is just waiting for me. I wanna move abroad in the sun, sell our house to buy outright abroad, work in a cafe during the school hours where I have zero work responsibilities .. but this is just all a pipe dream right ? my children are settled in good schools - 2 in SEN school which was hard to get into - the country we want to move to don't recognise SEN as well as the UK and there are no SEN schools or if they are none of them speak English. I would lose the circle of friends i longed for all my life and now finally have. I don't think i could ever get a circle like that again anywhere else.
My OH feels the same as me.
Anyone any thoughts ? or feel like this themselves ?