7th miscarriage happened last night.
I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'm really struggling to keep it together.
I don't know how to carry on with normal life. I sit at work and think, I can't do this forever without a family. Just work, go home, sleep and back again.
I don't care about anything and hate myself and my body so much it makes me cry looking in a mirror. I feel pathetic and embarrassing. I don't want to be pitied by my friends and colleagues who are all moving on and having their children and leaving me behind.
DH has children already and I hate myself for thinking it but it makes me so jealous and lonely that we aren't facing the same future.
I don't know where to go from here. I am constantly being pushed back to square one, I just can't be satisfied with anything in my life. I have never felt so desperately miserable in my entire life.
Sorry for the rant 