Anyone recovered from binge eating?

[nighttimethoughts]

Would love some advice regarding how to recover from binge eating tendencies, I have a diagnosed eating disorder and either restrict or binge on so much junk food.

It's been 7 years now for me and it's exhausting. In the bath currently with the worse sore stomach as I ate loads of food earlier

I'm not overweight, I'm actually just at a BMI of 18.5 but whilst I know I'm technically slim, my body image is awful and I don't have any self confidence or esteem.

I'm on the waiting list for CBT for my anxiety but it's been 18 months so far and nothing yet. Can't afford private therapy. My ED & anxiety means I can't work so I rely on my partners income.

I listened to a podcast 'stop binge eating' bu kirsten sarfde. It helped a bit but its an ongoing battle.

Have you tried Overeaters Anonymous? A friend has started going and is finding it v helpful.

I found distraction, with a walk a book or a film & a comforting cup of tea could ward off a binge. As well as just stopping buying what I gravitate too in binge mode: sweets, crisps, chocolate, cake etc. Having them around fuelled the wanting them & made it too easy. Willpower is not my thing with food.

I'm still waiting to see my latest cmht to see if I can get some help. Nothing useful to add, just wanted to say I understand.

I read a book called Never Binge Again that really helped.

Still happens but not to the extent it did years ago where I would gorge and feel scared that my stomach would burst.

Always feel I'm stuffing emotions down or filling an empty void and now try to determine what is bothering me. Sorting out what emotion I'm actually feeling isn't straightforward and do a lot of post-processing so not always sure at the time of the binge.

Not as much these days but I still have a terrible relationship with food. It's either 'good' or 'bad'. I absolutely agree with just not having it in the house. I'm completely ashamed to say that I bought a 12 pack of crisps that was gone in 2 days last week. I hadn't bought them for months, didn't bother me but when there I'm just so greedy.

I'm relatively slim too size 10/12 but hate myself for the way that I am & that's not a good place to be.