I (we) have 2 dcs. dd1 has just turned 2. dd2 will be 1 next week. I am sure you all appreciate how 'taxing' they can be. I also work 9pm - 2am 3 nights a week to try and make ends meet. So me and dh should treasure my nights off surely??? Not a bit of it as evear he's picked a fight and f*d off to bed. I'm so sick and tired of his mood swings. I know he has stress at work (although he had a v favourable pay review today so he should be happy) if I ask him about work, general worries etc i'm nagging if I leave him to talk to me I'm uninterested. I always back down and talk him round because I don't like him being so low, but tonight screw him. I'm sleeping on the sofa. I can't be bothered any more. I try so hard. I work my knackers off trying to do the best for the girls, keep the house reasonable. I did baking, cooking etc today to use up all of the food that is going past its best in an effort not to waste money/food etc. I don't want a medal, I just don't want to be shot down in flames all the time. I feel worthless and unloved. An au pair rather than a wife.