I really regret saying it now but it’s what I’ve been thinking. I suppose what I really meant is that he’s a bad partner. I told him that he’s good for making the baby laugh and making up his bottles but he doent do anything else. Dp has left to go for a walk.
Ds is nearly 5 months old (no other kids). I’ve just had enough. I feel overwhelmed. I do just about everything and makes a big deal out of doing one or two things that I do all the time.
Dp lost his job 2 months ago and was prattling on about the pollution in the area and asking me why I wasn’t concerned etc. He’d obviously been doing a lot of research- which angered me more because I literally don’t have the time to think about these things. He basically told me that he was going to find a job in a different area as this area is dangerous for ds (it’s really not- think large town). He comes from the countryside and we have a lot of arguments about this issue as I grew up near this area. Anyway, I’m just angry that he seems to be calling the shots.
Yesterday, I managed to clean the house, take ds to his baby groups and complete a job application (literally with the baby in my arms). When dp is applying for job he is left to it because it’s considered important. After I’d finished the application I was trying to get ds to bed, which is a nightmare. He cried on and off for nearly an hour. I cried with him. I even left him in his cot to cry for 5 minutes while I cried on the bed. In the end I came downstairs as I was getting really frustrated. Dp was “cooking” (ovening) dinner. He asked me what the hell I was doing downstairs and to go up to the baby. I was furious, I actually thought he might offer to help.
I suppose I’m resentful. I’m constantly picking up after Dp. He used the washing machine for the first time in his life today using my written instructions while I went or with baby.
Anyway, thanks for reading my rant. I know IABU for saying that as he’s not a bad dad just not a great partner. I just feel so stuck. He’s still not back.