Gp appointment borderline personality disorder

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Hi

I have posted quite a lot recently about my poor mental health.

I have had anxiety and depression since my very early childhood. I self harm, have uncontrollable fits of rage, feel empty, suicidal etc., I have shockingly low levels of self esteem and this has led to self sabotage in degrees I'm excelling in etc. I often find myself in places I have no recollection of getting to, extreme mood swings etc

Anyway I think I may have bpd. I've never responded to medication (antidepressants and propranolol) or CBT or counselling. I had an extremely anxious childhood, alcoholism and suicide highly prevalent in the family.

I'm obviously no expert so I don't know. I know it's easy to self diagnoswe on the Internet.

I've made a gp appointment today because my anxiety is horrendous. I keep thinking people are about to report me to authorities etc for no reason. My gp is extremely unhelpful though. He keeps parroting that I need to take antidepressants but I have and they don't work. I think he will dismiss me outright.

Aibu to ask for tips on how to approach this.

I am feeling so hopeless, is the only way to receive mh help though admission to a and e

I agree as others have said, borderline personality disorder or as it is now called, emotionally unstable personality disorder is a highly stigmatized label.
The standard treatment for bpd appears to be anti depressants, mood stabilizers, tranquilizers and the therapy is dialectical behaviourso therapy.
A young relative of mine us diagnosed with bpd but has not been able to access therapy, I recommended this dbt skills workbook to her, I hope it helps you OP
www.pdfdrive.com/the-dialectical-behavior-therapy-skills-workbook-e19134904.html