Another strange one I can’t explain.
An ex colleague contacted me a few years ago, as she realised one of her patients was living somewhere I worked at the time. She asked me my thoughts on him.
So about 18 years ago I worked directly with service users in a low secure mental health unit. This one guy had committed some bad crimes 40 odd years ago. But he scared me! I remember one day walking down the stairs and he was sat in the dining room, as I looked in he turned his head slowly towards me then motioned with his hand ‘slit throat’. I shock it off after spending a day a little nervous.
Later that week he walked passed me in a corridor, suddenly turned around and pinned me against the walls, arms and all, I was stuck. But it was his eyes, they had turned pure black, and it was the second time I’d seen it happen. Luckily another service user walked passed and went straight to the nurses station and told them what was happening.
Two male Asian mental health nurses came running out (they are amazing guys whom I’m still in touch with). They basically said ‘let her go, or you go down to the floor’, he thought about it for about 8 seconds, let me go and walked off. I was shaking at this point, first time anything like this had happened to me.
Both nurses came either side of me, put their arm around me, and took me to the nurses station. They told someone to make me a strong cup of tea with several sugars.
So we start taking about the incident as you do when something happens, and I mention his eyes going black. They both looked at each other and I said ‘please don’t take the piss out of me’ and the one said ‘we aren’t we know what you mean’. The other then said ‘his eyes go so black he looks like ‘x’- I can’t remember the word he used and I said ‘I don’t know what that means’. The other turned around and said ‘he looks like what you say is the devil’,
Turns out they’d noticed it but when they’d asked the British nurses no one had seen it. Then I said ‘I know two support staff who have seen it too, but everyone else thinks we are seeing things!’
So the ex colleague who’d contacted me then said ‘that’s what I was going to ask you, because when his eye turn black it’s like pure evil and I’m scared working with him’.
I then emailed the one nurse, and brought this up, he replied in the hundreds of service users and patients he’s worked with since, he had never seen eyes turn black like that since.
So I’m 🤷🏻♀️As to what happen there!
Will add that I’m a child from an abusive childhood, who is also hyper vigilant (psychiatrist told me that) brilliant for working in mental health as I could defuse situations before they escalated and anyone realised something was wrong. I’ve also vacated pubs because I can feel in the air that it will all kick off, and after leaving it does. It’s handy being hyper vigilant but it can be tiring too!!