So I usually take care over my appearance, like clothes and make up and always have. I often get compliments on my outfits but always say oh it's just from tesco/ Primark/ Asda (or in the case of a top I was wearing last week, it cost me 20p at a bootsale). Or if someone says I'm wearing nice perfume, I have to tell them it was just a cheap one from m&s or whatever. I absolutely cannot just say 'thanks' and leave it at that, it makes me really uncomfortable.
Recently I've lost almost 6st, and so lots of people have been mentioning my weight loss. Again this makes me feel super awkward when anyone says anything. Thing is, I'm actually quite confident in myself and know I look great. I expect other people to think so but if they actually say anything it is too much.
This also affects my relationships. I've always expected men to think I'm attractive and hit on me...but any overt interest makes me recoil a bit. You know how sometimes a partner (or potential partner) looks at you with desire - that makes me feel a bit queasy. I feel decidedly ill at ease if a man is overtly attracted to me, I actually find it easier to deal with if they're not that interested. Being chased or pursued holds no attraction whatsoever!
Am I a bit weird? And why do I do this? I honestly can't remember a time I didn't feel this way.