Fair warning, this is long and boring. I am feeling hurt and annoyed and petty. The crux is DP, to be honest.
Firstly, he didn't tell me that he had the long weekend off. He works shifts so I never know when he'll be home, and we could have gone somewhere had I known. He says he forgot because he was tired.
We were invited to a BBQ on Saturday but he didn't want to go because he wasn't feeling up to socialising. So I said fine let's spend the day together and go somewhere? He said OK, we'll go out. Come Saturday he woke up and said he had a headache and didn't want to leave the house, so I ended up going out on my own. I was too embarrassed to go to the BBQ after declining the invite, especially on my own. In the evening we went to the shops and he made me pick out a chocolate egg because he left it until the last minute.
Today we did bugger all. He at least seemed embarrassed by the effort I went to with his egg (giant version of his fave, plus a small army of Lindt bunnies) and with making a nicer dinner.
So just now well 10pm he asks what I would like to do tomorrow and started suggesting going to a local event we have been talking about for a couple of months. Looked hurt and upset when I said that I had made plans to see a friend on Monday.
I'm just so, so annoyed. Each day has been shit and/or boring. We never spend time together as it is because his shifts swallow up whole weekends, and he's tired, which I understand, his work is exhausting. But he likes to be ~spontaneous~ which doesn't really work with full time jobs that need planning around. I can't keep myself available at all times just in case he feels like actually doing something.
I really wanted to go to the thing he suggested but I won't cancel on my friend at the last minute, obviously. And I'm extra annoyed because she wanted to meet on Saturday initially and I suggested Monday instead as I thought we were going out!!
So I've had a shitty, wasted weekend doing nothing and then I'll have to go back to wasting my life at my shitty job and doing nothing.