In thinking there's something wrong with me (mental health)?

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I'm very anxious. I have constant worries about small trivial things. Extreme worry over things people wouldn't think twice about. Constantly worried about what other people think of me. I know I'm attractive but never end up dating anyone nice and always end up with someone abusive or unkind because I don't feel like I'm worth anything. Love social situations and am confident around people I know but as soon as I'm around someone who i feel could ever mean something to me, I go all anxious, sweat buckets, feel inadequate.

I feel like my life is a living hell at the moment.

What's wrong with me?

I also count when I get anxious. Obsessively count the corners and edges of things. The white lines on the road. It drives me insane and if I get interrupted it throws me off and I feel like crying. It's horrible.

Sound similar to me. I have OCD which is managed quite well with CBT.

I’d recommend starting to keep a diary of what you feel, and when. It will allow you to better identify your triggers but it’s also useful to the GP to speed up your referral if there is ‘proof’ it is ongoing.

I feel for you. OCD is awful. So claustrophobic and lonely.

I've no solution but wanted to post to say that you are not alone and people do read your post.

I have OCD. It’s quite well controlled but when I am low or stressed it flares up. You need to go and speak to your GP. There are lots of options. Thinking of you, I know how shit it is