Hello,
I am feeling a little down. I might be being silly or maybe my feelings are valid. I am in my early thirties no living parents or close family. I have two good friends I work full time and have two kids( 10 & 12) go to the gym 3 times a week and am pretty busy with everything. I am also in a relationship and we live together. I am the one in my house that organises bdays and makes a fuss of everyone( days out, cake, presents and parties) bday. I understand as a mum and partner this is normal but I’m still a person and I never get a fraction back of what I give emotionally and in effort. My last 2 birthdays have been really rubbish. Myself and my partner aren’t in a great place and on the verge of breaking Up. We argued my last 2 birthdays and he was pretty horrible to me ( separate issue).My 2 friends haven’t bothered to spend time with me the last 2 birthdays or even get me a card. I even went away on one my friends bday weekends 2 months later to another city where she was made a huge fuss of. To be fair they always have good reasons to not see me on my bday( unwell, childcare, working) but it’s ALWAYS on my bday and they make time for others bdays when they say I’m their “ best friend”. Am I being silly? I just feel so unappreciated. :( I’m not asking for a lot, I am even happy to think of what to do. I simply want a bit of time and effort :( I mean it’s the same day every year and I give lots of notice ( 2 months) for people to make arrangements. But again this year both my friends are unable to see me on my bday ( 5 weeks away). One cancelled and one said she just can’t. So it’s looking like another’s crap one. I am not going to spend it with my partner and the kids are at school. It just hurts when everyone makes effort for nights out and other priorities. Just for the record I’m not talking expensive gestures. I was suggesting going for a breakfast (£6) or use of a nearby spa facilities in hotel( nearby place as a £12 deal on). I know I am capable of being alone but it’s ALWAYS like this :(