I had a surgical abortion over six months ago, myself and dp weren't in a good position to have a child and it made the most practical sense, although very difficult.
The procedure itself and recovery went as smoothly as it could have but now we have a sexless relationship. Six months on and the thought of sex fills me with dread, I'm not intimate like I was because I'm terrified it'll lead on to sex, cuddling and kissing makes me uncomfortable, I can feel us drifting apart because he doesn't really understand what's going on in my head.
If he tries it on I get snappy because I feel frustrated at myself for being incapable of doing such a basic thing with someone I love. The few times it happens I'm so tense it's a mess and anxious afterwards. He's patient and understanding but I know also a bit hurt and I've had enough.
What the hell do I do. Please if you have any advice or have been in a similar situation, I just want to feel like myself again. The decision itself was heartbreaking and I regret not being able to carry on with it, but now I feel my relationship slipping away too