I'm sat here with big, ploppy tears running down my face. I will try and give you the short version of my story...
In August 17 DH and I started ttc - we were successful the first try but lost our baby at 12 weeks. We carried on ttc but it took another 9 months and treatment before our now 12 week old DS was born. I developed a bilateral pulmonary embolism at 17 weeks, then my DS was born 8 weeks early, then I developed sepsis and then caught type A flu AND THEN got diagnosed with heart failure! I only turned 30 yesterday!
It's safe to say that physically and mentally I have well and truly been through the ringer! I'm not saying I have it worse than anyone else but I do seem to have had a rather lengthy spell of bad luck.
My DH has made out right from the start that this has affected him the worst and made me feel pretty bad about being poorly. He's had to take some time out of work to help me look after our two children and has made it clear how much he resents that fact. Every day without fail he is angry (not physically) and says how shit it is here and how crap his life is. He can be quite verbally cruel, more so since I've been unwell. He had his BP checked yesterday and it was a little high and he blamed me because I do the food shopping and I've enabled him to eat "crap".
He's fairly happy to be a grumpy sod all day but then expect that I'll want sex with him at night! In fact I was a bit upset just now as he was having his daily moan and I nervously laughed and said "Your life would be so much easier if you weren't married to me" - to which he said nothing. So I went upstairs to sit on the bed and he came up and said he was hoping to catch me undressed and started touching me up 
Along side this my Mum said that we could go and stay with her whilst we found more suitable accommodation for my health needs and even put forward the idea that we could joint mortgage with her but then turned around out of the blue and announced that she was selling hers and buying a new one. Up until then she has always said to me that I would always have a home there if I needed one and was always asking if I wanted to stay over for visits etc but now she has this new house lined up she seems to have withdrawn all of this. She was supportive of the problems that I've been having with DH but if I ever call her now and talk about it she just repeats the same sentence or and over "Just ignore it".
She almost has me written off as a dead woman walking! She keeps saying to me that I need to write my will and leave my eldest DD to her (not my DHs bio DD).
I just feel like I'm only wanted when I'm useful for something! I feel really sad and like I have nowhere or one to turn to. My mum only wants me when theres something to gain (money or my DD) and my DH only seems interested when I'm miss perky and up for sex! Am I being unreasonable??