I suffer from chronic anxiety, at the moment I’m coping ok with it on a day to day basis
Today, I had appt at foot clinic
I was prepared to go on my own and thought as I was half way to the hospital I had to attend (any time) for chest X-ray I go if I was not too stressed from clinic appt.
Partner says I’ll come with you, and we can have some lunch out. Ok
I do first clinic appt, was a bit anxious but managed it.
So I say yes I’ll do hospital and get it out of the way as only 5 mins away.
I pay £3 parking for my car, so we head for Costa sandwich and coffee
Then head to X-ray dept, I ask the guy any idea how long wait? Should be in within hour.
So we’re sat there, Partner had scuffed his new shoes (car park) and was going on about them (very ocd about his things) I just said it happens there only shoes.
He starts going on “ I’m going straight home after this” going to shop for shoe polish!!!! Ok
I didn’t want him winding me up(I’m the one with anxiety/panic) so said go for a walk/shop ? I’ll text you when out.
Story short, he’d only been gone 10/15 mins and I was done.
I rang him, no answer. Thinking he’s driving
So text to say I’m out
Few mins later he rings, and says he’s in town centre, finished and walking back to car Ok, I’ll start to walk down, pick me up on road.
Well I get all the way to where he said my car was parked virtually,?he rings said he’d just got there!!
I’m a slow walker, he’s fast.
I was knackered thirsty, he just sat in car.
I knew it was the bloody shoes he’d been sorting out, as it just doesn’t take that long.
I had to let rip, I was so angry.
He knows what I’m like with my anxiety/panic, but me being me didn’t want us to both get wound up
Sat waiting, so said go
I did get the panic/adrenaline feeling in the X-ray room and just wanted to flee.
Virtually ran out off there to the outside.
I’m really angry with him, that he couldn’t wait with me. Instead was thinking more about the bloody scuff on his shoes than me.
I told him!! Said sorry but that’s just a word he finds easy to say.
I can’t stop feeling churned up and angry at him. Wanting to tell him again, but know it will lead to argument
Aibu?