I was raped about 5 years ago. I suspect I may have been drugged but I’m not certain. The man who did it sent me a message afterwards basically admitting he had raped me and that I was near enough unconscious when it happened. In his words, he ‘dragged me up the stairs’.
I was so traumatised at the time I just deleted the emaills where he admitted to raping me. He said something like ‘I didn’t care, I just dragged you upstairs you were barely conscious and that was what I wanted’.
Some ‘friends’ of mine were there at the time but blamed the whole situation on me.
It’s taken me a long time to get into the headspace to be able to do confront this. Google initially told me that they cannot restore the emails. But surely if it’s someone admitting they’ve raped someone, they should share it?
It’s deleted from my mailbox, but surely not their server, right? I tried once years ago to get the mail where he admitted it back, but Google were unhelpful. I just want to get his emails back so I can prove he did it and then have some peace.