To think and know deep down I will never get a bfp

[Rspu3]

I’ve been ttc for 7 years with nothing. My periods are like clockwork and they’ve only ever been late once last year which got our hopes up which turned out to be a heavy horrendous period (sorry tmi)
We’ve had tests and mine are normal but my oh has a count of only 2-3million per ml. Motility is about 20-30percent. He’s never gotten anyone pregnant (previous partner got
Pregnant straight away with new bf after they had split)
I’ve been pregnant before with ex but had a term over 10 years ago.
I have this feeling that we will never get to have a baby I can’t even imagine getting a bfp
Let alone a baby to bring home. We are waiting for our appointment at the hospital
For more tests I know we will need ivf but even thinking about that I just think it probably won’t even work. Has anyone else felt this certain it wouldn’t happen? And then it did? Any similar circumstances?
Just seems like because it’s been so long trying it can’t physically ever happen for us now. Or it would be too good of luck for
Me/us to get such a miracle of that makes sense.

My husband had low sperm count and this improved dramatically between his first sperm test and the day of our egg collection I think from change of lifestyle. He gave up alcohol and coffee for three months, stopped cycling/wearing Lycra and took q10 supplements. Brazil nuts are good for your DH to eat too. I was 34 for our first round and DH was 40.

Lots of support over on the infertility topic xx

Hi Rspu3, I've been in a similar place thinking that it will never happen.

DH had a zero sperm count over several sperm analysis tests. We had a round of IVF with ICSI (surgically retrieved sperm) and unfortunately for us, it failed. At the same time of us going through IVF my (younger) sister had just given birth to her first baby and other friends were getting pregnant too.

It was really hard.

We did a bit of soul searching, and decided that if we were going to do another round of IVF, we wanted something to change, so we sought out help from a brilliant urologist in London.

We were really fortunate in that the treatment he gave us worked, and we're now expecting our first child. I was genuinely convinced that we would never get a bfp to the point that we started planning a childless life.

You're not alone in feeling the way you do.

So many success stories on here Thankyou so much! Really has made me feel less alone in this and gave me some hope now. @fuzzypixel I already feel some days that I should prepare for a childless life, but then a little voice in my head tells me that I haven’t tried ivf yet so don’t feel like this. I haven’t give it my all yet.
Dh has said we will do everything we can, we really haven’t got the money for private yet and believe we have one free round on the nhs so waiting for that and if it doesn’t work will pay as we are now saving for back up.
Congratulations to everybody on here who had babies it really
Is such a heartbreaking thing to deal with hoping I get there in the end x

My friend husband had very low sperm
They resigned themselves and went on to have 3 , including a surprise one