To want more?

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Name changed as I feel awful for even typing this and I'm ready to be slated for being immature.

I love my DP and love my 1 DC. Currently, 50% of the time, I can't wait for the rest of our lives together, and can't stop thinking about growing our brood and looking at buying a house etc. I just love our little unit.

But the other 50%, I've started to get absolutely consumed by feelings of just wanting more. It's nothing about DC, I wouldn't change being a mum for the world and can't imagine any feeling more fulfilling than that.
It's more the relationship part. I get big pangs of jealousy when I hear of other people talking about all the people they've slept with or having a no strings attached situation, or the first meeting someone start of a relationship phase. I get so jealous and I get this horrific feeling that I don't want to go the rest of my life not sleeping with anyone else. Even to the point where I fantasise about cheating with people I have crushes on (I'd never do it and I feel awful if my mind ever wanders to it!!)

Am I just being completely immature and pathetic? For reference, I had DC young so in a way - did miss out on that part of young life that most people experience (although, like I said, I wouldn't ever want to change being a mum!).

Is any of this normal?

Feel ridiculous even reading this back.
I know that going and sleeping round wouldn't be anywhere near as fulfilling or happy in the long run, I just can't shake the feeling that I'm missing something!

Shamelessly bumping!

Do you and your partner do many things just the two of you? Sounds a bit like you’re missing a bit of excitement and romance

@riotlady we do actually, that's where I worry. We allocate a slot to spend time together most nights when DC is asleep and have at least one night a month just us two.

I think it’s human nature to want what we don’t have. I sometimes desperately wish I was single and childless and living alone. I fantasise about coming home to a house that only has my stuff in it at whatever unreasonable hour I want.

Yes, I agree with Racecar. It’s natural to think the grass may be greener while simultaneously loving and appreciating what you have.

@Racecardriver @FlagFish nice to hear I'm not awful for this! Thank you.