My (D?)H left in June 2018. I have 2 DC, 8 and 18 months, the littlest is his daughter, I also have a son from a previous relationship. We would have been married 3 years. I won't go into the ins and outs of why he left but he's dragged me through hell emotionally over the last 6 months.
I looked after our daughter almost 100% since she was born. I've nurtured her and given her everything I have to give. He never did a night feed, wasn't really up for helping all the time when I went back to work. He's not a bad Father all the time but lacks consistency and in a nutshell I think struggles with family life and it's perceived mundane-ness.
Anyway... tomorrow is the first night I'm going to have to hand my baby girl over for him to take back to his house and have her overnight. I am gutted beyond gutted. She is my whole heart. I had my DS and had to get my head around him being away from me every so often but I thought I had a second chance with my DD, I thought my DH and I would be together forever. I thought we could share the joy of her and she would have a settled life, with one home and family that were all happy.
I am really unhappy. It feels like it's snapping my heart in two. To hand her over to him tomorrow is so so hard. She's So happy and settled in her routine at home, she does love him and is excited to see him but I don't think she's spent one night out of her own cot in her life. AIBU to feel this way? Just be honest, if I am then that's fine x