Ffs someone just kick me up the arse !

[happytits2019]

I literally am going through this stage where I just can’t be bothered to do anything 😂my house is not dirty I should add but is basically like a whirl wind has gone through it I finally just got kid asleep I need to the house and the washing and I’m sat here instead because I just am like can’t be bothered anymore 😂
I had a melt down yesterday because I didn’t get DD5 to school now the school have allowed her off until Monday to give me time to re organise my life 😂this might be due to me crying down the phone at the senco !
I just can’t seem to understand how everyone has their shit together and I’m just like blahhhhhhh
I don’t think I have even cooked dinner in over a month.

But if your daughter was in school it would free you to sort yourself out, wouldn't it?

I think a GP appointment tomorrow (if possible) would be your best bet. I think just talking about it will make you feel better.

If you are foggy and exhausted it could be low iron or thyroid. Maybe get a GP appointment and have some blood tests done

Have you seen your GP about how you’re feeling? You could well be depressed.

Hollowtalk not really that’s where the problem is !
She is only at school on a part time table ! It our routine has to start at 6pm the night before ( 4.30 pm on bath and dressing days) everything has to run like clock work to get her there for 8.45 and have to wake up at 5.45-6 am to make it work )
Then I pick up her at 12.

In reality this is exactly how the last few weeks have been

Xmas , new year , dds birthday all by January 3rd. First day back at school
Which was her first morning session from doing only afternoons in term before to only mornings this term.
Night of first day of school daughter was admitted in to hospital, came out last Saturday night was meant to be back to school Monday off Tuesday for a important hospital appointment back in Wednesday, off Thursday because hospice nurses had to look after her so I could go to the funeral
Back in Friday but I completely slept through my alarm on Wednesday so she didn’t go. I felt awful because I’m trying to get a routine I really am but it feels impossible.

I'm really sorry - I'm tired and worse than useless at the moment.

I hope everything goes well for you

OP are you me???
I totally get you! House is a shit tip constantly and I have great intentions of clearing out/cleaning but I just cannot be bothered! I feel so guilty!

Don’t day sorry that’s my problem to I’m too tired ! Maybe we introduce those places where you can take a nap in the middle of the day in England ❤️

Arch light sorting the garden out has been in my list for 6 months 😂🤣
I just have 0 motivation !

You don't seriously think everyone else has got their shit together? Of course they haven't.
Call in whatever troops you have to help.
Honesty is always the best policy

@happytits2019 I just cleared the age 5-6 clothes out my DDs wardrobe tonight. She's 9 😳.

I knew someone who joined a gym with loungers by the pool so he could go and sleep in his lunch hour!

I feel your pain. When DS did nursery mornings I’d barely got him there and it was time to pick him up.

Hahaha archlight !

Monty27 I wish had troops ! Just me unfortunately 🙈think I’m going to just stay up tonight and get the house done !
I know once it’s done it done I just don’t know where to start !

Who died? Is your daughter having hospice care? Have I missed another thread?

I second the iron level check. The most unbothered and exhausted I’ve ever been was when my iron level was almost at the level where they needed to give me a transfusion.

My daughter is under a hospice yes.
The nurse from there came to look after her today so I could go to a long family friends funeral.
But we don’t get hospice restbite a lot only in emergencies.

Yeh I think I might pop to the GP I’m just so exhausted all the time. Yet can not sleep at night if I tried !

If you have a child who is under hospice care then FFS you need support and kindness, not kicking. I'm so sorry. Honestly,, fuck the housework, it doesn't matter. Are there people around who can look after you and DC?

No so basically right now it’s just me and I’m trying to get this new routine down of being out the house at 8 am but its just not working
So many night time routine is

Can’t go to bed at least 1 am once DC cares are done but struggle to fall straight to sleep to its about 2 am before I actually get to sleep.
Alarm is set for 4 am to wake up feed DD do nappy,and temp check etx
Check IV pumps.
Get back to sleep at about 4.40
Alarms goes of at 5.45 so I can have coffee before starting routine of getting things dine before school starts ! I failed this all week 🙈

You need to seriously cut yourself some slack. You are functioning on minimal sleep in stressful circumstances, I'm not surprised you burst into tears on the phone to the school.

Sod the housework, it's always there. As pp have said go to your gp and explain what rest you are getting and see if they can give you a check up including bloods in case something like low iron levels are making it worse. Can you access any help or support through social services or via the gp to give you a hand? Definitely worth asking and not just making out you can cope. Your Daughter needs a mum who isn't worn out.

I dont think you should feel guilty about wanting to relax and go on mumsnet rather than do cleaning when you have a tiny moment of downtime.

I am not sure what help you can access - would a referral to some kind of children and families social work team be worthwhile? You could ask for a carers assessment I think? It sounds like you don't have a support network and that's what you need. Maybe the GP is the best place to start asking for help.