I have name changed as been on here ages and people do know me.
I'm in real turmoil and it's killing me.
I care deeply about my DP but I don't love him, not romantically anyway. I feel like acquaintances living in the same house. We have a 2 year old, she happened quickly after getting together as we were long distance for a while. We just bought a house together last year. I told him twice last year how I was feeling but he kept saying it'd go away once we had a bigger house and more space etc. It hasn't gone away, in fact it's gotten worse to the point where I feel trapped.
He's a good person, cares about us a lot and works hard, is fair with money and helpful around the house. He has his faults like everyone, he's quite judgemental and condescending when he wants to be. He's very analytical and we don't laugh together, our sense of humours are very different and I think that's the hardest thing. there is just no spark between us at all. At night he sits on his phone and I watch TV feeling numb. I feel nothing when I kiss him and I just feel overwhelmingly guilty about it.
I don't know what to do. I only work PT and even with benefits I'd be on a lot less than our combined income. I could afford to rent a small place for me and my daughter, or could move back in with DM but we don't have the best relationship. I couldn't give my daughter the life she has with both of us though and feel so guilty for doing it. But I can't stay with somebody I'm not in love with. It isn't fair to either of us.
I just don't even know where to begin. He is going to be heartbroken and don't even know what to say to him but I know I have to do it. Is there anybody who has been in this position who could offer some advice?