To find parenting hard?

[KateGrey]

I know I chose to have my children and I love them but I never expected life to be this hard. I have three kids (10,7 and 5) my eldest has an autoimmune disease, my seven year old has asd/adhd/hypermobility and my 5 year old has an autoimmune disease asd/adhd/hypermobility and expressive language delay (meaning he can’t talk). Oh and he also doesn’t sleep. I’ve held down a job part time for the last but my youngest was in and out of school (their choice). He’s now at a different school and going full time. So I feel stupid writing this. I should be glad that he’s enjoying his new school. We had a massive battle involving court with our ex school which was draining but I can’t seem to pull myself out of this slump. I love them all but things feel so intense. We can’t go certain places and life is quite restricted.

How do I pull myself together? I feel like I’m just putting one foot in front of the other and I’m drowning. I feel like I’m wading through treacle and everyone expects me to be tough. How do I get myself out of this slump?

Of course you're not BU OP, parenting Is hard and that's without things like learning difficulties etc

Do you have anyone IRL that you can talk to? Support groups?

Parenting is bloody hard.

I take my hat off to you OP. You're doing a fantastic job.

Do you have any groups you can go to or Online support forums specifically for your children's conditions?

I feel for you OP. Life does sound very hard. Do you get any respite, help from family or friends? Time on your own. I know it's not a magic solution to your problems but I always think it helps.

Yes im alone with 4, 2 of which has asd, its very hard

Parenting can be unbelievably hard even with two adults, one healthy/NT child and enough money for a good sized house and lifestyle etc.
No wonder you're feeling the strain in your situation.
Try not to feel guilty for finding it hard, it's no reflection on how much you love your children or how much you wanted them.

Oh man, that does sound really tough. Is there any chance of practical help from any source? Although then looking for that is yet another job for you to take on. Could you maybe talk to your GP, get an urgent appointment?