From 2013 to 2017 I spent 6 months in summer abroad working/holidays so winter time I when I was at home I was working 6 days a week to save money for my summers. I generally didn't go out much while at home, mainly because it was cold and I was trying to save money. But there were some people I would meet up with every few weeks. I have friends who live quite far away, few hours on the train away, I met during summer and we meet up every summer.
Last year I fell pregnant with my boyfriend who used to travel with me, we'd been together 5 years until he left me at 5 months pregnant. Whatever shit happens.
All The (very few) friends I had told me they would be there for me of I needed but most live far away so obviously don't see them often.
I went back to the place I usually went in summer this year with my DD to meet my friends (she was born in April) but nobody was really interested in meeting me, they'd come for about half hour that's it. Only one person made an effort.
One friend borrowed money off me when I was pregnant and then basically disappeared when I asked for it back as my DD was born and we agreed she'd pay me back then.
One friend loves about and hour and a half away on the train, I went down for her birthday for one night a few months ago and my mum looked after DD. She promised me she'd come up and visit me and DD but every week keeps asking when I'm coming back down to see her, I ask when she's coming up here and she says she has no money, yet expects me to have more even though I have a child and she doesn't.
Another I never hear from any more, if I text her I'll get one reply days after my message, and then nothing.
Another, who actually lives close to me, has only ever "had time" for 3 meet ups since DD was born 8 months ago. Even though when i was 6 months pregnant I walked for 45 mins in thick snow to go meet her because her boyfriend was being a dick and her family live elsewhere, and then again when I was 8 months pregnant her gran died I went to her house at midnight, even though I had work the next day. Like I don't mind cos this is what friends do, but 2 months ago she text me tp say she was moving back home and we need to meet up, so I said as I'm on maternity I am free all the time so just let me know when she's free. No reply, text her again she said she'll see when she's free, she moves on the 2nd Jan. Yesterday she uploaded pictures of her and 2 girls we worked with, having fun and drinks, so I text her last night asking of she has time to meet and she replied with "really sorry but I don't" I went through a really tough time a few of months ago, and she told me she would be there, but everytime I text to meet up she is busy.
Other friends and eve b family are expecting me to travel on trains for hoirs to go see them but nobody will come to me. It seems people only come to me when they need it and I'm really fed up. I want to just cut everyone out but I have no friends and I already feel lonely.
How do I meet new friends at this age? Especially with babies?
AIBU to just cut everyone out? Am I over reacting? I'm just feeling a bit sad recently as the only person I have is my mum, which is great, but I would love to just go out and socialise without DD sometimes. I feel like there is no such thing as a good friend anymore. I would do anything to help anyone but it's like no-one will do the same back. And I don't ask for much, just company.