To remember a lost love

[justexhaustednow]

I can't really explain it. I'm happily married to a man I really love. I wouldn't change it, and I'd do anything for him.

But every so often I think of a lost love and wonder what could have been. The man in question moved on from me, and I moved on too, but recently he messaged me. It'd never become something now, but I still wonder about it.

I know it isn't right in my current circumstance and I truly love my DH, but I just wish the chapter would close. To be clear, I always want to be with DH, and never reconsider this aspect of my life, but still this thing haunts me.

I think it's human nature to wonder about these things. Occassionally I'll have dream about my first serious boyfriend where things are just perfect. Then I'll wake up and remember how selfish and manipulative he was during our relationship. I'm generally happy with my current DP, we rarely argue, he's definitely a lot more stable and someone I want to share life with. It's a different type of love I guess and sometimes my subconscious self misses some of that intensity and drama I guess.

OP - I’m going through similar and I can understand the feeling of being haunted by it. Us humans are curious creatures and will always tease ourselves with what might have been. We love fantasising as it stimulates the happy drugs on our brain. That’s what’s happening here. He’s messaged you, it’s stirred emotion, probably some sexual excitement and your brain wants more. It’s normal and natural for this to happen. Try and rationalise your feelings and remind yourself that the love and stability of your relationship is what’s best for you.