My sister lost her job (again), has no health insurance (she lives in America, I'm in England), has an untreated mental illness (bipolar). She emailed me today to say she is suicidal.
My elderly father is very ill and has been having seizures and blacking out. He's also very depressed and doesn't know what to do about my sister. He has been giving her money. They live in the same city but he hasn't seen her for a month- he needs help looking after himself but she has been making excuses not to see/help him.
DH and I lost two dogs who sadly passed away this year. The most recent one was only 2 year old. It happened last month and she was in pain for 24 hours (at the vets) before we had her put to sleep.
Now an employee who reports to me at work has swanned off for Christmas break and left me with a ton of his work to do in addition to my own. His absolutely must be done so I'll have to do it but I needed to use the time between Christmas and New Year on my own work so I'm going to be waaay behind. He will get off scot free again and can't be got rid of, he is very good at self promotion but does very little. I do manage him and he is improving slightly but he can't be relied on and creates a great deal of stress and pressure for me.
I just feel like...I need a break but I can't have one as I have so much stress and pressure and grief and worry at the moment. It's really getting to me. Normaĺly I just carry on and muddle through but I'm struggling.
I know things could be much worse and I'm grateful for what I have (my job, home and DH) but I'm feeling down. AIBU for feeling this way and what the hell can I do about it?