To feel so alone....

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I am being unreasonable, because I have the most beautiful little girl and a husband that loves me and 95% of the time is amazing

BUT I have a big family, 5 siblings a mum & dad and I just feel SO alone, I only speak to one of my siblings, no matter how many times I reach out to my Dsis she just ignores and blocks me, I don't even know why she fell out with me and she has never given my other sis a reason for it either, no one comes to see me or DD (30 min drive) or even really texts.

I don't even know why I'm writing this. I just guess I don't have anyone to tell, if I tell DH he just says 'don't worry you've got me & DD' I suffered with depression as a teen but I don't think it's that because in my 'home life' I'm happy, I guess I just miss what I had growing up which was a big family and close relationships with my siblings

I understand how you feel. I'm going through a lot right now and as much as people say they are there for me when it comes right down to it it doesn't feel like anyone cares

@RunningFeisty it's shit isn't it, my mum asked what my DD wanted for Christmas I sent her something from A shop 10 min drive from her house, she said she wasn't going to that shop! Well piss of then and don't buy her anything! 😂

Do you drive to see the siblings who do want contact with you?

You can’t control your sister, she has the right to have a relationship with who she pleases, just focus on the people who you are close with, you’re incredibly lucky to have a husband and child, so many people don’t have anyone. Allow yourself to feel your emotions but I’d work on trying to learn to accept that you can’t control anyone’s behaviour but your own, and that you’re worth only spending time with people who do like and appreciate you. You get the family you’re given but friends and your own relationships are so much more important.

@VietnameseCrispyFish Yes, my Dsis is 14 years older than me and Iv always gone to her since being a young teen, when I learnt to drive always took her places as she never did, watched her children whilst she gave birth picked her up from hospital, she was my best friend I went to her with everything in Jan she blocked my number out the blue and hadn't spoken since I think it's because I only got her 5 children selection box's because I couldn't afford anything else (buying a house)

I drive to see everyone, I was on my way home from shopping a few weeks back and saw my DM & DF car driving through my village and thought OMG they are actually coming to surprise me, they drove straight through!! It made me feel sick.

@VietnameseCrispyFish sorry I only have contact with 1 Dsis but she works full time long hours, we speak on the phone though.