Fucking anxiety. Its sucking the joy from everything. I feel in a total panic about Christmas even though ive got main presents. I havent got for DP. I work full time (like many) although i do 4x10 hr days it gives me one day a week. During those days im either studying or attempting to tidy the shithole that is my house.
Im stressed about my mother at xmas. Will she come? Will she be unwell? My adult dd? Will she come ? Will she be anxious?
My 13yo dd is showing signs of anxiety and OCD. Is this all down to me?
Everything is swimming around and around. We've overspent but it will be ok i have savings (limited) - nothing on credit.
I have a routine medical thing at end of jan that has like a 2% chance of turning up something shit. Dp will get a tax bill we wont be able to pay but it will get sorted.
Work is crap, college is crap and and and
You know what? Its just life. Everyone has it. Problems . They get sorted. Good things happen.
Something lovely happened to us yesterday. One of DPs clients bought us a holiday to thank him for doing a good job in their house. How amazing is that. I didnt sleep all night fretting over whether i could swap my annual leave. My line manager is a decent person so of course she has authorised it. It may not have been possible but it was. This will be our first non camping holiday in ten years.
So wjy do i just want to stay in bed literally with the covers over my head feeling overwhelmed by life.
What is wrong with me?
Please Santa can i have a grip for Christmas