My biggest success this year will have been keeping myself alive.

[Tinfoyle]

I'm feeling I have no family, I had to walk away from them all, every single one of them. Christmas is coming and I feel utterly immune to the songs in the shops. I go though agony after agony because I don't have a job & can't cover my bills. I'm expecting to face my abuser in court next year. An injustice that's lasted decades. And there'll be no compensation. It is my daily work to hold onto my smashed life & try & find meaning & purpose. Merry Christmas.

Tin things will get better, although that sounds so trite right now I wish you peace and hope next week isn't too painful for you

I have a friend going through similar and she is finding it very hard - 2 of her own daughters have sided with an unrelated abuser its the constant pick pick pick and can't fully walk away as she also has to face him in court on a regular basis not just once.

This year I am wishing for health and well being for all around me and I will include all suffering similarly such as yourself.